Saturday, 20 December 2008

Night to remember


The music throbbed.
The lights flashed
The dance floor was heaving.
I scanned the room and then I saw him.
The most handsome man there.
Our eyes met only briefly but his radiant smile remained as I walked towards him.
I danced his dance.
We stimmed we rocked.
I squeaked with his squeaks.
He held my hand HE HELD MY HAND!!!
I felt we were the only two people there. Worries forgotten as we lived in the moment.

I felt connected.

The evening was then cut short as Cs staff had to take him back (end of shift). But it was a magical night, Cs night club debut, one I will remember for a long time.


No fingers in ears!!

Cs first taste of alcohol!

Did i mention he held my hand!!!


He was fasinated by the smoke!


Merry Christmas Everyone!

172 comments:

Lane said...

Absolutely wonderful!

That is so special.

Wishing you and a C a very Happy Christmas.x

Halo said...

Looks like C had a wonderful time!

Happy Christmas to you and C!

Osh said...

yay!

DJ Kirkby said...

My eyes are full of tears, so happy for you (both!). xo

Kelley said...

That is that BEST Christmas post ever.

Seriously.

So wonderful. So joyous.

Oh shit. I am crying. With joy.

And I cannot stop looking at the picture of your hands entwined.

Beauty. Sheer beauty.

Casdok said...

When i got home i cried to!

Suburbia said...

He held your hand, wow, what a wonderful night. Merry Christmas Casdok, such a moving post.
(Just wiping the tear from my eyes)

Moannie said...

What a wonderfully joyous post. A fantastic gift for you both. I am a soggy mess.

Merry Christmas indeed.

Cathy said...

Aah, how lovely.
Happy Christmas to both of you!

Cx

Working mum said...

What a lovely Christmas present for you.

How great that the nightclub puts on a night for people with disabilities. I don't think about experiences like that that others take for granted. I'm so glad he enjoyed it.

May he have many more enjoyable boogie nights!

The Finely Tuned Woman said...

How absolutely lovely! It must have been a dream come true.

merry Christmas to you and C too.

BenefitScroungingScum said...

Cas, this post has really made my xmas. I'm just so happy for you both!!
One of the nightclubs in my area does a special night for those with learning difficulties, I hear it's incredibly popular. Perhaps you and I should start a club business?!
All the best for Xmas to you and C. Lots of love, BG x x x

Mrs. C said...

Ohhh, Casdok, my eyes are full of tears, too!!

Merry, Merry Christmas to you, too!!!

Cheryl said...

Casdok,
I have tears in my eyes, I am so happy for you and C. What a magical evening. The perfect Christmas gift for two very beautiful people.
XOXOXOX

JoyMama said...

What a glorious, magical evening.

Thank you for inviting us into your joy!

Niksmom said...

BEST POST EVER! Sure, so many of your others are highly informative and thought provoking, etc. BUt *this* one clutched my heart in your entwined hands and made me weep tears of joy. I know how long you've waited for something like this. Can't stop crying and smiling for you!

Happy, Happy Christmas to you both, my friend. xo

Maggie May said...

I am so excited for you. Marvellous evening and ......he held your hand!!!!!!! Yay..... progress is being made!

Beth said...

And a Merry Christmas to you and C - so glad you shared that wonderful moment.

Jason R. said...

What a Beautiful moment for you!

Happy Holidays!

Jason

craig andrew said...

C:)

floating in space said...

Beautiful! No doubt, the best Christmas present ever.

deb said...

So glad he enjoyed it.

Bonnie said...

So Cool! Sounds like a wonderful evening. I have to ask, did the alcohol have any interesting affects?

J said...

I'm so glad you shared this with us. I loved your pictures of C and that the fact he held your hand! : )

Casdok said...

Bonnie - i actually didnt let him have very much as he wasnt coming home with me. But maybe over xmas i will let him have more as it would be interesting to see. :)

Joeymom said...

How fabulous! Woo-hoo! I hope he had as great a time as it looks ;)

bullet said...

What a fantastic time for both of you :D. I am so pleased he enjoyed himself.

Debs said...

Wow, what a brilliant night you both had. So thrilled for you both.

Hope you and C have a wonderful Christmas. x

Kit Courteney said...

Oh I wish I'd been the first to comment as I now feel such a twit.

Ditto what everyone else has said.

THAT IS **SO** THE BEST POST EVER!!!!!!!!!!

I'm not an overly emotional type - but Jeez... that was a 2 tissue one, so flip knows how YOU must have felt!!

Merry Christmas to you, C and your entire family. You are such an inspiration to us ordinary, boring types.

Very best wishes for the new year!

Cheri said...

This moment, and the moments like it, are so important because they give you something to hold on to. May you and C experience many more of moments like this.

Warty Mammal said...

He looks like he's having a fine time! Is that a grin I see in the smoke picture? Some interesting things are going on in that mind for sure.

teeni said...

This, by far, is the happiest holiday post I am sure I have ever read or will ever read. Your joy is just glowing off the page of this post. I am sooooooo glad he held your hand. My heart swells with yours! :)

Tera said...

What a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! Thanks for reminding me what it's all about.

OHN said...

Special moments in life.

Merry Christmas!

She said...

That is ABSOLUTELY the MOST BEAUTIFUL THING I've ever read!

Tears, yes! Joy, ABSOLUTELY!

Chris H said...

You couldn't ask for a better Christmas Present could ya? AWESOME.

bobbie said...

How wonderful!

That's all- How wonderful!

Happy Christmas, Cas!

Rosie said...

o wow what a post...you just made my day...i am so happy for you both

jess said...

a better 'date' could never be had she wrote through through tears. beautiful, nay - MAGIC

Marita said...

Best Christmas gift ever.

I love the picture of holding hands.

motherx said...

That is so lovely! He looks like he really enjoyed himself, what a great experience for him! I especially love the first alcohol picture!! brilliant!

Get Off My Lawn! said...

Holy cow. Just goes to show you how we all need a new environment to explore once in a while. Congratulations. It looked like it was a lot of fun.

Nea said...

Brilliant photos and a beautiful post.

Looks like you both had a great time.

Merry Christmas to you both.

citizen of the world said...

That was indeed a wonderful gift. Yay!!

Paulene Angela said...

I just love connections, they lead to so much more ....
A magical experience for you two, and a magical experience for all of us to share with you.
Thank You Casdok and C and a Merry Christmas too.

Elissa said...

Truly beautiful... and yes, tears in these eyes too!
What a night to remember and treasure forever!
Love to both you and C xx

lisadom said...

How brilliant! I want to go there now too. Congratulations Cas and C; may there be many more.
What music did they play? not that I know anything about "clubbing" being such an ole wan myself.

Bet Bratty would love it if the beats were right.

xx

Mama Mara said...

That post was disco-rific!

Kimmber said...

Merry Christmas!

Ian Lidster said...

I am genuinely happy for you and may all the blessings of the universe unfold for you, my amazing friend. You deserve them.

Jessica said...

What a magical night. I can almost feel your heart swell with love and pride.

Suzanne said...

I see I'm not the only one moved to tears. hooray! I'm happy for you both!

abstractjenn said...

Thank you for sharing something so special with us. I hope you have a Happy Christmas!!!

Jocelyn said...

Oh. Oh. Oh.

I'm swooning a bit from the joy of all this.

What gift could you ever need beyond that hand holding?

Tanya @ Teenautism said...

I have a huge smile on my face now! That is so exciting and special! C looks like he really enjoyed it. I'm so glad that you and he got to experience that! Hope both of you have a beautiful Christmas and many more moments like that in the New Year.

graceunderautism said...

:-D
That is amazing!

Flea said...

Merry Christmas to you! He held your hand!!! What a beautiful gift for you both. :)

TOM FOOLERY said...

WOW! What a magical moment. Merry Christmas to you both. TFx

David N. Andrews MEd (Distinction) said...

He handled a nightclub? Go C! :)

I can't handle them at all!!!

Sounds like you had an excellent evening!

Gonna share my one of these with you...

My wee girl's Asperger-autistic and it's often hard for me to know what's on her mind. I showed her my CV (she asked me what I'd been working on while we were at lunch in a burger place). She saw the stuff I've done and then she read my little bit in Finnish at the end (I'm not a native speaker of the language). And then she looked me in the eye and said: 'Dad, I'm very proud of you!'

I got choked up. I can relate a little to you experience with C, and I hope you get many more of these. It's often assumed that we autistics can't enjoy things like that, but we can!

Faith said...

Brilliant!

Merry Christmas to both of you.

frogpondsrock said...

He held your hand.. Merry Christmas

Attila The Mom said...

Oh how wonderful!! ::sniff sniff::

Hope you guys have a fablous holiday!

Jen said...

That is the happiest post that I've read anywhere for a very long time.

Merry Christmas, and here's to more hand holding in the future!

Odat said...

Wow...how very special! How fast he's growing up!!!
Have a great holiday!!!
Peace and hugs.

Akelamalu said...

What a truly magical moment for you m'dear. I imagine it was the best Christmas present you could possibly have. x

FXSmom said...

omg...i'm teary. I know how huge this night was for you guys!!! Wow :)

buffalodick said...

What a wonderful Christmas gift to you!

Shrinky said...

Magical! Merry Christmas to the both of you, bonny lass.

starrlife said...

Oh my gosh, I could cry- that's so wonderful and I am so happy for you! And for C of course- sounds like a blast worth repeating! merry Christmas casdok!

Lady in red said...

how wonderful for you both

rainbowmummy said...

Ok so THIS is what you were talking about last comment?!!!

AMAZING, no other words!! This is the type of thing you will remember for ever, the type of thing that sends shivers down your spine.

Betsy said...

What a wonderful memory! Once in a while my guys will dance with me...it's always a magical moment! :)

Crystal Jigsaw said...

That is just absolutely wonderful. Again, you have made me cry. I am so thrilled to see the picture of C without fingers in ears.

Love CJ xx

kimber the wolfgrrrl said...

What a wonderful night! Happy Holiday's to you both!

Grit said...

Happy Christmas wishes, Casdok and C!

Green Girl in Wisconsin said...

What a terrific night out! Love the smile on his face.

Traceytreasure said...

I'm so happy for you!! Just the kind of feelings that are priceless and precious that I was mentioning in my last post!!

I hope you can have more nights out like that one!! Congrats!!

Happy Holidays for you and C!!

Big hugs and love, T

Heather said...

my first visit to your blog- i'll definitely be back- so beautiful! I'm so happy you had such a terrific night out w/your son! Merry Christmas!

A Bishops Wife said...

How wonderful,happy and just plain ole GROOVEY!!!!!!

laughingwolf said...

excellent, cas

season's blessings to you and yours, m'dear...

Ange said...

Merry Christmas! It looks like he's pretty darn happy... and obviously you are too! :)

Dad Stuff said...

Incredible! You sound as happy as a teen with a clear skin.

Who knew C was such a 'playa'.

Marla said...

I am so happy for you and C! What a wonderful experience for you both. The pictures are awesome. Thanks for sharing them.

Dave Coulter said...

It sounds like you had a fun time out - and hopefully more to come! Merry Christmas to you & C from across the pond! :)

Mama Zen said...

Merry, Merry Christmas!

Punkys Dilemma said...

MERRY CHRISTMAS CAS AND C!!
What an absolutely wonderful memory to keep forever and ever!

MMC said...

Merry Christmas to both you and C, Casdock.
What a wonderful post. Wow, they really do grow up. Who knew?!

FANCY said...

Hello

Sounds like you was in the seven sky for a moment...;)

Merry Christmas :)

San said...

How beautiful!

I see what you mean about getting your Christmas miracle early this year.

Blessings to you and C...

Jade said...

Ohhh YAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!! That is so awesome. I had the biggest smile on my face reading this! I wish I could have been there! Ohhh I bet your heart melted when you felt his hand in yours. YAY! Bet you never thought your little man would be a "rock star" eh? Hehe he likes the club scene. And why not, he's a cute, young man. Very normal.. :-)

Ohhh thanks for the smile! I hope you two have a very wonderful week together. :-)

Cyndi said...

What an awesome event! Clubbing, drinking alcohol, and dancing with beautifiul mom...what more could a young man ask for?! Sounds like you two had a blast. Merry Christmas! :)

mommy~dearest said...

Oh Yay!!!
It looks like a fabulous time! I keep looking at the picture of you holding hands too. You must've been positively grinning from ear to ear th whole time.

Thank you for sharing!

claire p said...

Wow!! He held your hand!! Wow again. Best Christmas Pressie ever. Have a good one. xx.

CC said...

Merry Christmas hand-holdee!!!

Frogs' mom said...

What a wonderful night for you both! Love the pictures of C - he was looking very handsome indeed :0)

Merry Christmas to you both!

Dr. Deb said...

In a word: Wow!

Wishing you and your family a Happy Christmas and a 2009 filled with all things good.

M said...

i just really like his styling shirt.

bam!

C...wearing the black/white plaid...working it, making it handsome.

you've got quite a man-about-town there.

that really must have been a beautiful scene for him...he liked the smoke...we know he likes feet...so a dance hall must have been a dream for him. purring ensues.

Ann said...

I've read your post 3 times now and tears still stream.
I'm so happy for you that you had this connection. Holding hands. I'm just so happy!

captain corky said...

Sounds like a magical night! Merry Christmas to you and C.

lime said...

i am so very late getting here and catching up on the last two posts. i am so glad you and c had this time to share and that it was so special.

glad also to hear from the last post that you are feeling more hopeful about his home and have found a couple of staff to build a trusting rapport with. i wish you and C a very merry christmas and for 2009 to have fewer distressing days and more happy times.

Honeysuckle said...

Oh, wow - he had such a great time! And so did you!! So pleased for you both. May it be the first of many nightclub experiences.
A Very Merry Christmas to you both.

Anonymous said...

Gosh Casdok
I missed the party again.
So what ya doin New Year's Eve?

Quasar9

Ellee Seymour said...

Absolutely terrific. Have a wonderful Christmas Casdok.

Kahless said...

Wow!!!

Merry Christmas to you and C.
xx.

Adventure Mother said...

Wonderful. A moment to treasure!
Merry Christmas to you and C!

Andrea said...

He held your hand.
:-)
Merry Christmas

zury said...

Ahhh.....How wonderful that he held your hand :)
Hope you have a very "Merry Christmas"

Feliz Navidad!!

nitebyrd said...

How magical was that! I can only imagine how big your smile was and still is!

Merry Christmas!

Dianne said...

He held your hand! What a wonderful holiday gift.

Love to you and C :)

Holly Nappi Collins said...

What a beautiful poem to a wonderful evening. these moments are the ones to truly remember!!

Happy Holidays to you and C!!

earthlingorgeous said...

I'm moved! (((Hugs)))

Merry Christmas!

Palm Springs Savant said...

Wow, that's wonderful! I'm really happy for you.

Hope you have a Happy Christmas

-Rick

Cheryl said...

I'm sitting here on Christmas Eve, thinking of you and C. I hope you both have a wonderful Christmas. Sending love, hugs, peace and joy.
XXXXX

Sass E-mum said...

D - I - S - C - O

He held your hand. I'm so happy. Not that you could tell of course, because I'm crying.

Wow. What a happy Christmas.

Mama Deb said...

What an awesome Christmas present!
Hope you both get a lot smiles this holiday.

storkdok said...

You must still be floating! What a wonderful evening to remember! I love the pics! What a great idea, a night on the town for our special kids! Who came up with that idea?

Patrick @ Caregivingly Yours said...

Magical! What an extraordinary entry and more importantly moment for you all.

Caregivingly Yours, Patrick
http://caregivinglyyours.blogspot.com/

She said...

I hope you and C had an awesome Christmas!

MarmiteToasty said...

I have tears streaming down my face for YOUR happieness.......

x

Merelyme said...

Oh my goodness...wow!

Happy Holidays to you and mister C.!

Goldie said...

awww, I am choked up. How beautiful. LOVE the hand pic!!!
What a Christmas gift!

Happy new year to you. LOADS of blessings.

Mary P Jones (MPJ) said...

Casdok, that sounds like a wonderful experience for both of you! Love the pictures. Thanks so much for sharing this special moment with us. :)

Anonymous said...

I was enjoying your post until I got to the picture of C swigging a beer and your exuberant comment, "C's first taste of alcohol!"
WTF?
Alcohol is bad for anybody. Imagine experiencing room spins, nausea and headache when you don't have the ability to understand what is happening to you or what caused it.
Oh but he just had one beer.
Uh-huh.
Letting him have that beer is just as careless as hiring a hooker and posting a picture of him having "his :first sex!"

Casdok said...

I total understand what you are saying anon and that is why i only let C have 1 mouth full.

blogthatmama said...

What a happy post and a Happy New Year to you both Casdok blogthatmamax

E said...

This made me cry. May your new year and Cs be filled with many such moments. Happy New Year Casdok and love from Vermont

Anne Brooke said...

That's the best Christmas present EVER!!! Lovely to read about.

Love to you both

A
xxxxxxxxxx

Jorgo said...

Gee, I thought that was the start of a love story.

Turns out it is part of one of the greatest continuing love stories ever...

AND you both got to dance!

HE held your hand!

A miracle...

Have a very good Christmas and all the best for 2009 and always.

Jorgo said...

It was very good of you to publish an anonymous comment and then answer it.

Your courage inspires me often.

I agree alcohol brings much more bad than good, however, "Letting him have that beer is just as careless as hiring a hooker and posting a picture of him having "his :first sex!""

Was an ENORMOUS departure from a simple sip...

Be well.

vivavavoom said...

Oh how I love your blog! Happy holidays and many blessings to you and C in the new year!!

JUST A MOM said...

WOW,,,,,,,,,,,,



have a great new year.

just WOW!:)

starrlife said...

Have a Happy New Year Casdok!

laughingwolf said...

happy new year to you and yours, cas :D

Lisa~The Stimming Spot said...

fantastic I love it! Casdok I wanted to tell you my 6 year old has found his ears like C. He now walks around with his second finger in his ears. I have been following your blog now for so long and very familiar with C. I was amazed when my young one started to do this. Just thaught I would share :)

Anonymous said...

oooh hiring a hooker. now thats an idea :) dont be so judgemental anonymous. Casdok and C work hard everyday in life. I think maybe they deserve a taste of beer. Happy New Year!

Anne said...

Beautiful, absolutely beautiful!

Dave Coulter said...

Happy New Year!

whimsical brainpan said...

How wonderful!

I hope you had a great Christmas, and Happy New Year!

Kia (Good Enough Mama) said...

How awesome and wonderful and superb and arm-hair-raising this was to read! I'm so happy for you both!

Maddy said...

The first of many, I hope.
Wishing the best things for you both in 2007.

LceeL said...

I am so sorry to have missed both Christmas and New Year's.

What a Christmas present!! He held your hand.

And Happy New Year, my Queen.

natalie said...

Merry Christmas, indeed!! Happy New Year to you both!!

Attila The Mom said...

Wishing you guys the best for 2009!

Melinda said...

all your posts have been so well written and full of emotion. Wishing you and C a Happy Holiday and New Year too!

She said...

Happy New Year! Just thinking of you today and wanted to wish you a peace filled year!

E said...

I came back to this post again becuase I was thinking about your anon.
Your crabby anon keeps coming back. She is surely ignorant and judgmental, but she keeps coming back. Clearly you have something she needs.
You are as kind to her as I would expect you to be and kinder than I would be able.
But welcome anon, I hope you find what you need here in this place of love and inspiration.....

Angela said...

I do hope this new year brings many more special moments for the two of you

Seen This Scene That said...

Happy New Year! Great to see both of you having a good time. Take care.

Dazza said...

Very moving image.

Happy New Year to you both!

Daren
xxx

rainbowmummy said...

These photos get me every time! I was just popping round to say I loved the idea! E mail me some time xx

San said...

Just popping in to wish you and C a HAPPY NEW YEAR.

Palm Springs Savant said...

wanted to wish you a Happy New Year Cas.

-rick

The Finely Tuned Woman said...

I am suddenly without an internet connection, but I have managed to write one post and am about to write another. I miss you guys and your posts and your comments. I miss you and hope you are well and C also.

Much love, Irene

Mistress B said...

That is so great!!

What a fantastic christmas present for you :)

Andrea Shettle, MSW said...

Happy Christmas!

Sorry to be off topic, but I wanted to make sure you knew about the latest that is happening with Jerry and his, yes, humanitarian award:

Jerry Lewis, the man who runs the annual Telethon to raise money for people with muscular dystrophy in the US is about to receive a humanitarian award. Many people in the disability community is protesting this award because they feel that Jerry perpetuates and entrenches negative, harmful stereotypes toward people with disabilities. More about the petition campaign at: http://www.petitiononline.com/jlno2009/petition.html

There is also a Facebook group at http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=40538392681

Balancing Act said...

Sounds like a wonderful evening. Glad you all enjoyed. Thanks for stopping by and leaving a comment.

QUASAR9 said...

Heeeeeyyy
Where you gone?
When you coming back????
Happy New year!

lonestar said...

Wow, that is awesome! I'm glad ya'll had such a wonderful night :).

Amber DBTD said...

How awesome! Good job C! The pictures are beautiful, and I'm so glad you got to hold hands. Mine may only be 5, but I feel that same excitement in having him hold my hand.

rainbowmummy said...

Hi! Found Snow Cake on internet, added address to my new post :0)

Emily said...

What a great evening. C looks fantastic and like he's having great fun. Happy New Year to you both.
E

rhubarbwhine said...

Oh wow. That hand holding is a huge, huge thing I know. Your post made me quite teary, but in a good way. Thanks.

cbh said...

What a wonderful night to spend with your son! I hope all continues to go well! Thank you for continuing to update us on your and C's life.

M said...

because of your awesomeness as a writer, you must now post every day.

every. single day.

i know...this is a lot to ask for. but there it is.

so...i'm going to begin clicking my refresh button until new posts magically appear.

click.

(hi)

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LceeL said...

Just stopping by - making sure all is well - or hoping so, anyway.

KC's Blog said...

Awesome! He looks so happy! I cried happy tears when I saw the picture of C holding your hand! What a super wonderful night.

david mcmahon said...

Dear Casdok, God bless you and C. May 2009 bring more memorable moments.

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rainbowmummy said...

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Beautiful, absolutely beautiful!

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