Tuesday, 30 October 2007

The universe stopped just for a moment


Taking C back to school we were standing up on a packed commuter train heading towards London. The commuters are all in their boring black suits pretending not to stare at C over their newspapers and laptops.

C is smiling, C is happy head banging, C is jumping at least a foot in the air, he’s doing his usual I am really happy to be on a train ritual. After about 10 mins (we now have about 3 foot of space as everyone has backed off) of this he calms, and attaches his tongue to the immaculately clean window (not).
With tongue on window, humming, index fingers in ears, 4th fingers up each nostril, he then pokes his middle finger in each eye and looks at me!

He is looking at me, really looking at me!

I must be really distorted! I properly look better like that!
It was a lovely moment, I felt he was looking deep into my soul, so I telepathically sent him all the love in the world - no the universe!

Thank you Quasar9, I pinched one of your pics and blended it with one of me!

The journey went really smoothly for a change and the book was a laugh! So maybe the cosmos was with us?!

And the wine and sleep were a treat! I managed to lay in till 6am!
Ps Something for Halloween.

55 comments:

Anne Brooke said...

He looked at you - super fab!!!!!

Hugs & huzzahs!

A
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Elissa said...

Wow!!! Your spirits must have been soaring!

So wonderful to hear of such a special moment!
xx

PS Glad to hear the journey went well and that you had some well deserved sleep.

Cowgirl said...

That must have just about put the icing on the cake - wow. Loved your picture too, and glad you got a bit of extra sleep.
xx

Inthemud said...

Hi Casdok,

I can really visualise C doing that at the station, and really staring at you, how wonderful!
It says more than a 1000 words could express.

Glad you had a good relax last night and a bit of a lay in!!

Casdok said...

Thanks Muddie, it does dosnt it!

Amanda said...

first smiles- now eye contact!
thats wonderful!
:-)

frog ponds rock... said...

Excellent..If that made me happy, I can only imagine your joy.
cheers kim.

buffalodickdy said...

Happy Halloween! Eat some candy today!

bullet said...

Glad the journey went well :)

Posie Rosie said...

The best things in life are free........

Jen said...

How fantastic...what a wonderful memory to have while you wait for the next visit!

Suffolkmum said...

Oh Wow!!

Suzy said...

C knows. C loves you. Now you know how much.

He's a great guy. You've taught him how to love.

So happy for you.

Love

Suzy

captain corky said...

I'm really happy for you. Connecting with him like that must have been amazing!

Self employed mum said...

What a great way to leave you. x

abstractjenn said...

Wow - I'm really happy for you Casdok! It must have been quite a moment when you were both just looking at each othere.

Have a great day.

Patti said...

That is wonderful to read that C looked right into your eyes, Casdok.
I also am happy for you.

I agree with Posie Rosie: the best things in life are free. ;-)

Casdok said...

Arnt they just! :)

Nancy said...

Heart warming post.

Maybe a reassurance that he is happy at his school too? I'm sure he knew where he was going.

I'm glad you were able to sleep well, and knew C was looking at you, taking in your love for him.

Marla Fauchier Baltes said...

I am so glad you had that wonderful connection! Thank goodness you got a good nights sleep!

PI said...

So glad you had that moment. It is a great gift to be able to write about your son with honesty and humour and thank you for letting us in to a part of your world. Now have a jolly good relax.

BBC said...

Beautiful

Simply beautiful

Cait O'Connor said...

Great news!
You have a lot of people who are with you Casdok, yuo are not alone.

Phil Plasma said...

With all of the strangers who are constantly looking at C I can only imagine how surprised/pleased you must have been to have him actually look at you.

Consider it a bright spot to burn into your memory for future reliving.

craig andrew said...

C:) and a moment is all we need.

Pauline said...

Thank you for your recent visit. It never ceases to amaze me the wonderful people that are met through blogging. Your blog is a tribute to commitment and love. Each of us have different experiences to live. Perhaps someday we can share. Blessings and understanding coming your way!

Maddy said...

I have a window licker too. So glad to hear that you had that 'moment.'
Cheers and Happy Halloween

Holly said...

Wonderful. May it tide you to your next visit.

dgibbs said...

That is absolutely awesome!! My eyes are all watery! I can only imagine that what he saw and the message he got from you was beautiful.

Top cat aka DjMasterTc said...

What a beautiful moment..
no words needed

I had fun with the pumpkin, thanks that was fun.:)

tc

Ms.L said...

What a joyous moment!!

Happy Halloween!

FXSmom said...

That is sooo awesome!!!

Sadie said...

How wonderful!!! What an incredible moment for you!!

Happy Halloween!

And, P.S. Thanks for finding/commenting on my blog :D

Christy said...

This post just made my day. I was feeling a bit stressed but then I read how C looked at you and about your telepathic universe of love. It touched me. =o)

lampworkbeader said...

Good news indeed. Happy times!

DJ Kirkby said...

Lovely!

Wooly Works said...

Excellent!! Your newly reclaimed sleep will be full of lovely dreams! What a terrific report. Thank God for the little miracles in each day!!

QUASAR9 said...

Pretty Magical,

QUASAR9 said...

So despite all
you still manage to communicate
and somehow reach thru
and he still sees you too

Casdok said...

Yes :) Who needs words....

Big Dutch said...

I'm glad the trip went well and that you're back safely and had a few magic moments to boot.

I should add that I love green eyes in women!

Happy Halloween!

Dutch

Vi vi vi vooom!!!!!!!! said...

DIVINE photo! Hugs to you with this fab feeling you must have. xx

Jodi said...

"I felt he was looking deep into my soul, so I telepathically sent him all the love in the world"
Ohhh...I love that!

Chris H said...

Wow, how cool is that? a magic moment to treasure MOM.

Little Wing said...

He looked at you.......yes, truly a magical moment.
Bless you and C.........

TheBirdman33 said...

Cool picture!

And what a sweet story! I'm glad you had that connection with him.

Pavel said...

That is really wonderful!!! wow...

You must have floated all day. Good for C. I wonder how he felt in his soul to connect like that.

Pondside said...

Lovely moment - made me shiver.
I had a little fun with the Jack o'lantern!

misha_k said...

That is so great. I'm happy for you. That's something to cherish as the days go by to when he'll be home again.

whimsicalnbrainpan said...

How absolutely beautiful!

mommy~dearest said...

I have no words, just know that I am all teary-eyed. :)

childlife said...

Oh... I read that last part and caught my breath! What an amazing moment... I'm just all teared up over the priceless beauty summed up in that one look! You just gave my soul wings today : )

Donetta said...

hello, It was great to meet you. You have a fabulous Son as he does a Mother. Sounds like life is a different beat for you. I am grateful that your drummer makes you such lovely music. Thanks for the visit.

Eileen said...

So beautiful! Beautiful on so many levels, for both you and C
XOXO

Philip. said...

'we now have about 3 foot of space as everyone has backed off'

Now that must be a positive on our overcrowded train system :-)