I take C back to school today, I have blogged about this before so I am just going to repost.
I do have a new book to read on the train which I am looking forward to it is by a local author and blogger Anne Brooke. I’m hoping it will keep me awake!! Thank you Anne.
It will be a long day. A 9 hour round trip. 6 trains, 3 taxi's. It’s a draining day, leaving my son in the hands of others. But I console myself in the knowledge they can give him more than I can on my own. The local services are not equip for him.
My house is quiet and still. I feel empty and bereft. It takes about a week to get ‘used’ to the empty feeling, but it never goes away. There is a hole in my heart.I used to cry for days after leaving him. Now the tears don’t come but they are still there.Tomorrow I will change his empty bed. Tomorrow I will paint the smile back on my face. Tonight I am going to have some wine and sleep.