Tuesday, 16 October 2007

Half term!

I’m excited and nervous. My house and my life have been rearranged and my brain will follow! I pick C up from boarding school today.
It’s a long day, a 9 hour round trip, 6 trains, 3 taxies.

Oh I hope I don’t get the taxi driver who told me I should have had an abortion, or the taxi driver who dumped C and I in the middle of nowhere cos he couldn't cope, or the taxi driver who wants to get into my knickers.


I hope there aren’t the wrong type of leaves or water on the tracks.

I hope everyone is feeling happy today and no one decided to commit suicide in front of our train. This has happened 7 times now. Each time the train has stopped in-between stations for up to 2 hours. C finds this impossible to deal with, as then so do the other passengers as they watch in horror as C goes into a head banging frenzy.

I hope I can not let it get to me when people stare at, laugh at, point at, mumble at, mimic and video C.

I hope I can give C the relaxing holiday that he deserves. (Especially after what happened)

I hope I can find him something he will eat!

And hes a year older since i last saw him!

I hope he will give me an enormous hug when I see him. I know he wont, but I can dream...

Got to go….have a nice day everyone!

55 comments:

Anne Brooke said...

Hope your day is good, babe - sending hugs!

A
xxx

ORION said...

My thoughts are with you.

Cathy said...

OMG I think you are so brave to do that journey with C. I know I couldn't! Don't the LEA or social services offer any transport or is the headbanging too much of a problem for them?

Cx

Elizabethd said...

I so hope all goes well for you both, trains run on time, and sympathetic taxi driver.

Crystal Jigsaw said...

You don't do things in halves!! I'm really rooting for you today, Casdok. You must be really excited and a little bit nervous at the same time. But you can rest assured that even though C cannot hug you physically, he will be holding you tight in his heart and loving you in his own very special way.

Take care and have a wonderful day.

Crystal xx

Chris H said...

Hells bells! All that has happened!!! I hope your trip goes/went fine and you have C home safe and sound. I hope you have a good time with your son on his holiday.

Elissa said...

What an exciting day you've got ahead of you! I'm sure all will go well. Enjoy yourself, and I look forward to hearing all about it!
Elissa.
xx

Hannah Velten said...

Dear Casdok, I do hope that your day turns out OK - travelling all that way is hard enough as it is, without all the trauma it can cause to C, and yourself. Hoping also that you reconnect together on some level during the holidays - best of luck with everything. And enjoy....! Mootia x

Wizzard said...

I hope all the transport goes smoothly. Good Luck
wx

Vi vi vi vooom!!!!!!!! said...

Oh I can hear your excitment from here, getting your boy back for the holidays. Just as excited about mine going away for the week! lol

Self employed mum said...

I hope it all goes well for you both. x

Suffolkmum said...

Hope it goes well. I really can't get my head round what you said about the taxi drivers - or the fact that people would video C when he's distressed, or point and laugh? My God.

Mary said...

I am certain everything will go well. Have a wonderful day!

dgibbs said...

You really have no luck with public transportation do you! I'm not sure many people coulde cope with all of that.
Hope you both have a great holiday!

Blossomcottage said...

Hope Is the Thing With Feathers

"Hope" is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul
And sings the tune without the words
And never stops at all.

I love this little poem I hope you do as well.
Good Luck and Good Day.
Blossom x

Niksmom said...

Will be thinking of you and C all day and sending loving, comforting, smooth-trip-home thoughts. xx

BenefitScroungingScum said...

I hope the journey went as well as possible and you and C are both home safe in routine now, BG x

Ashley's Mom said...

You will be in my thoughts and prayers all day. Traveling is one of the most difficult times for my family, and the actions of other travelers along the way do nothing to help the situation. Stay strong and enjoy your time with your lovely son.

BBC said...

Being new new to your blog I assumed that he lived with you all along.

Have a safe trip out there in monkey land. I hope it goes well with you and C. Hugs.

Shari said...

I hope you have a safe trip. Here's a cyber-hug.

mommy~dearest said...

How exciting! Here's wishing C a happy home-coming!

ChrisH said...

Everything crossed for you (gawd, you need it!). Hope all is well.

Mantramine said...

I wish you all the best in your trip. I hope it all goes well for you and C.

Beth said...

Oh, my god, the history of your past trips sounds horrendous. May you have a peaceful journey this time!
Hope it all works out - Mom and her boy!

Rhonda said...

I hope for you too!

The train suicide thing is kinda freaky. We were told about some horrific things while on our trip.
thankfully didn't experience any.

Do enjoy!

Leesa said...

Sounds like an adventure - the trip, that is.

Jodi said...

Good Luck! I'll be thinking about you two and trying not to think about the people throwing themselves in front of trains...

Nancy said...

Sending wishes for a smooth trip to pick up C ... be safe.

abstractjenn said...

I hope your trip with C is peaceful and smooth. I hope that C is able to enjoy at least a part of the journey with you. I hope that he gives you a hug when you see him. I hope the train runs on time with no stops. I hope that the taxi driver is not a moron. I don't think that I'm asking too much for all of these things.
Mostly I hope that C is healthy and that he enjoys his time at home. I would love to see a new picture since he is a whole year older!

Holly said...

Thinking of you. Wishing well.

Little Wing said...

Oh sweet lady, I hope all of your hopes come true!

FunkyMunky said...

My heart goes out to you for all that you've been through. I really hope C is ok and that your journey wasn't too horrendous. It's awful that people are so ignorant and the reactions you have experienced make me so angry. I hope half term goes well for you both.

Billy Boy said...

If C. could make his own video of all of us, what would he record?
I remember an old tv advert of two little people in a space ship looking down on earth and watching us peeling potatoes and laughing their heads off as their potatoes came from a packet, just add water and ready to eat.....

Casdok said...

I very interesting question! I will have a think!
And yes i remember the advert and thought it very funny!
I will however proberly never beable to get into Cs mind, its all assumptions on my part!

QUASAR9 said...

Gosh Casdok, walking thru a minefield must be like a walk in the park for you.

QUASAR9 said...

PS - So what was wrong with the taxi driver that wanted to get in your knickers, or is it the fact that he wanted to get in your knickers that pissed you off - lol

Casdok said...

No! He just wasnt my type!!
And yes a minefield would be a walk in the park!

buffalodickdy said...

I hope your son lets you know somehow he's happy to be home- you deserve that!

gettingthere said...

Fingers and toes crossed.

Casdok said...

Well he hasnt knocked a hole in the wall yet with his head, and the ear piercing shreeks are a bit of a give away!!
Thank you!!

Christy said...

Every person you and C come in contact with should consider themself blessed. I really believe that he is playing a very special role in lives all around whether people take notice now or 5 years from now. Good luck and I hope the welcome home is a good one.

Gary said...

You're a good woman. I'm glad you're there for C and he for you. Wish the world was a more accommodating place for all.

Marla Fauchier Baltes said...

Wow. That sounds like quite the trip. I am sure it is worth the work. Best wishes! I am sure good times will be had!

BBC said...

"I hope he will give me an enormous hug when I see him. I know he wont, but I can dream..."

Well, I'm a hugger, there is one waiting here for you. :-)

And who knows, C might one day. Isn't there always hope?

I'll bet that he just hasn't noticed those beautiful freckles. :-)

If he does, you had better watch out. LOL

Paul F. said...

You can buy him a snare drum. That'll give him something to bang on.

Get Off My Lawn! said...

It is hard to know what to say that will be supportive and not trite. You are obviously strong, wise and determined so I fear not for C. Try to do something for yourself once in a while. You deserve it.

Dad Stuff said...

Good luck on your trip. I'm glad C has someone like you to travel with. Prayers to you for smooth sailing.

Pondside said...

By now you are probably safely home with C and just getting up - or thinking of getting up! I hope your trip home was uneventful and that you met only kind and interesting people. You will probably see some change in your son after a year apart. Wishing you a good time together!

thekingpin68 said...

It’s a long day, a 9 hour round trip, 6 trains, 3 taxies.

I hope that you and C have a great time together. That trip reminds me of my 9 hour train, bus, and taxi, trip (right after a 10 hour flight from Vancouver) from Manchester to Lampeter.

Mary P Jones (MPJ) said...

How wonderful. I hope your trip goes smoothly.

DJ Kirkby said...

oooh good luck, hope it went as well as possible.

Attila The Mom said...

"Oh I hope I don’t get the taxi driver who told me I should have had an abortion, or the taxi driver who dumped C and I in the middle of nowhere cos he couldn't cope, or the taxi driver who wants to get into my knickers."

Oh Geezus. Some freaking people. We had an intake worker tell us that we should think about getting our son sterilized because it was practically impossible to do after he turned 18---in FRONT of him! Makes me wish I owned a cattle prod to zap the ignorant. :-(

Casdok said...

Attila, how sad is it that i cannot say i am not surprised!!!
Yes i would like to zap a few people to!!

Linda and her Surroundings said...

It astonishes me that people are not naturally kind to those who are struggling with things. Even if someone is rattled by another persons behaviour, surely they would put that feeling aside and allow compassion to come in. I must be idealistic.

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